We Are Indigo

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
— Bob Marley

I love this

A poem of mine I recently recorded, called The Beat (lets overlook my sub par recording skills, thanks). Music is complements of M83 ‘I Guess I’m Floating‘

She looks beside her and sees that great man. Her eyes dwell on him as her consciousness streams to her children of all that he is. Through her, she affirms her son’s and daughter’s value of a man. But something is missing in this story. Does this respect not have to be earned by the man? Yes and no.

It comes from the space between them. It is built, brick by brick, with both their hands. Their reality is created, each brick supporting and reaffirming the other. They must work together. For without the affirmation of one, their reality crumbles. This, is the beauty of marriage, of love. Team work at its finest.

Sometimes, I think, when we wish our own thoughts on others, our love can get lost in translation. Like everything in life, the relationships we have with our parents are two-way, and they take understanding and love on both parts. I find this text by Khalil Gibran about parents and children so beautiful and so much truth in it.

Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let our bending in the archer’s hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable.

If you want to see a great movie, catch Natalie Portman in The Other Woman, which you can find On Demand, or wait for the select theater release on February 4th.  Portman is hands down one of my favorite actresses, mostly due to the fact that she always captures the most beautifully complex characters. This one’s no exception. In the film, she just emits this raw coldness. The little boy is amazing too. He’s from Charlie St. Cloud. Interesting- The original title was intended to be “Love and Other Impossible Pursuits.” Catch the trailer after the jump.

There’s one scene towards the end when William and William says, “I made Isabel an angel, even though I don’t really believe in angels, I thought it would make you feel better… What do you think happened to Isabel when she died? … She says, “I think she just stopped being. I think that whatever made her different from everybody else just dissapeared when she did. “No, were doing religion in school, and Buddhists believe in reincarnation. That means when someone dies, they come back as someone else and you might see that dead person some day and think to yourself, hey I really like that person, but you don’t know why. I’m going to be a Buddhist, and I’m probably going to be alive for a long time, so I’ll probably run into her. So I’ll always keep my eyes open. When find her, do you want me to tell you?”

Be open to the reality that someone, the right one, is going to love you exactly the way you are. Be open to letting the right person in. Be open to the possibility of love. Be open to finding a best friend.

Be open to possibilities!

Music is my constant. When promises are made and forgotten, when love comes and goes, when trust is built and broken, music never alters. It knows my stories, it knows my pain, it knows my happiness, it knows my dreams. It never leaves me feeling used or forgets to call. It always knows the right words, but mostly it knows when none are needed at all. And we could sit together for hours…  just staring at the wall. I’m going to stop rhyming now and leave the rest up to the music.

Speaking of porcupines… have you ever thought of how you might love one? Well, just as they are of course. I found this great poem by Patti Woosley.

SPOTS AND STRIPES
By Patti Woosley

When you marry a Tiger
You gotta love stripes
Cause it’s his stripes you will see
when you climb into bed very night
No, you won’t ever change ‘em
no matter how hard you try
and your Tiger will have stripes
till the day that he dies

But if you married a Leopard
He will always have spots
So you had just better learn
to love what you’ve got
Cause you won’t ever change ‘em
no matter how hard you try
and your Leopard will stay spotted
Why would you ask why?

If you fantasize a soft kitten
curling up in your lap
the Porcupine you married
Will never do that
But if you try to change him
you surely will cry
So love your little Porcupine
and kiss the fantasy goodbye

Stop always wanting
What he ain’t got
and stop trying to change him
into something he’s not
Just be sure that you love him
the way that he is
Tiger, Leopard, or Porcupine
He is, what he is.

Assuming that you don’t fall for every fool who has a lingering glance your way… What are the chances you will get hurt while falling for someone? It’s a given that taking two people going into a situation, they are bound to be thinking different things.  Sitting on a see saw- on one side I am blind folded and on the other I sit with eyes wide open. I want to trust my instincts and let my senses take over. But my feet can’t feel the ground, and I don’t know if the person on the other end will jump off and leave me to hit the ground.

It’s easy to say trust your intuition. In actuality, it can be a little scary if you foresee real feelings. Sometimes after having been hurt, we repel the energy that we naturally attract. This is nothing more than our survival instincts working in high gear   – Evade the possibility of loss at all costs.

I am naturally a very optimistic person, and I do believe that everything happens as it should. But as it goes in life, things in my past have made me hesitant to jump right in the ocean again. Maybe for now, I’ll just dip my toe in to feel out the temperature. It’s only going to get warmer, right? The way I look at it, either way it’s a risk. You jump and possibly one day realize you’re treading water alone … or you walk away from the water dry wondering what if?

I would love to get some opinions on this. What do you guys think? Is it better to just stop thinking and throw yourself into your interactions?